#ESMEINK : "Consciousness" Day 8


{ Consiousness }

"He reached over to the refrigerator, grasped an onion, and tossed it to me. "Peel it, layer by layer," he demanded. I started peeling. "What do you find?" "Another layer." "Continue." I peeled off a few more layers. "Just more layers, Soc." I said. "Keep going." "There's nothing left." "There's something left, all right." "What's that?" "The universe. Consider that as you walk home."

-From the book, "Way of the peaceful warrior"

Just when I feel like I'm going crazy because of how busy my mind is, I come across this piece from an amazing book. It's a lot to consider for sure. I'm called to meditate. Journalling has been great, but seems to have opened up so many thoughts, feelings, and confusion. I am writing down thoughts and ideas the moment I get them, so that I can write about them later. Some of them I don't feel ready to tackle when it comes time to sit down and write. Others, i'm just not that passionate to write about. I want each entry to really mean something. I want to work on my soul. Find what drives me. Get to know myself better.

There is change upon me, and it's a strong, heavy feeling. I don't know what it is, but I only feel this way when I know something big on the way. It's a strange energy.


Only the mind is resistant to change. When we are able to relax to a state of mindlessness, we feel happy, free, present, and don't sense separation from anything.

"The body is Consciousness; never born; never dies; only changes. The mind-your ego, personal beliefs, history, and identity-is all that ends at death." -"way of the peaceful warrior"

I want my mind to be less noisy. I want to feel more present. Meditation helps. If I can pay attention to the 2 main processes; insight and surrender, then I should be able to let go and be free of the mind, in those moments I need peace. Insight-paying attention to what is arising. Surrender-letting go of attachment to arising thoughts. I allow thoughts to come in, and I allow myself to let them go. This will give me peace.

I have no mantra for today. Rather, I will breathe deep, listen to the rhythm of my heartbeat and breath. For today, I am alive with many passions, and I will move through these thoughts without getting stuck.

"Quiet the mind, and the soul will speak." -Ma Jaya Sati Bhagavati


#ESMEINK Journal Entry by Lise-Marie Johnson