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#ESMEINK : "Healthy Mind, Healthy Body" Day 7

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{HEALTHY MIND, HEALTHY BODY}

"Caring for the mind is as important and crucial as caring for the body. In fact, one cannot be without the other." -Unknown

Being "healthy" generally has a large emphasis on food and exercise. Often, what's forgotten is state of mind. There is, a definite balance between the three. For myself, when one of those is out of balance, I generally fall apart in some way or another. Sometimes for a day, sometimes longer.

This past year, I had to let go of some anxiety relating to food, to ease my mind.

While I was in school studying holistic nutrition, I became increasingly afraid of making the wrong choices when it came to food. Is it a whole food? Are there ingredients, and what are they? Sugar is poison, is the food I buy ethical and humane? Am I supporting local? Am I deficient in nutrients, what are my symptoms? The questions were endless, and they haunted me. These thoughts and questions built and built, and the worry for my children and husband were present too.

Why, having all of this new, amazing information, did I feel more worried than ever? I would think that being empowered to make the best food choices should put me at ease. Isn't knowledge power? It didn't' feel that way.

I started to feel anxiety for the first time in my life. I had no idea where it was coming from until I self-evaluated. I first began looking at other symptoms I had, and there were none, other than that, and exhaustion. So I realized I needed to support my adrenals. I needed to focus more on exercise, and less about the food.

Finally, it clicked. I was so consumed with how my choices of food would do me right or wrong, that I'm sure I manifested unnecessary stress, affecting my nervous system and adrenals.

I Truly beleive that constant worry or fear can manifest health problems. Our biography can become our biology. In other words,- when thoughts, beliefs or fears are thought about consistently enough, they create physical pathways in the brain, and can have an effect on our health at some point. However, just as these thoughts are created, they can also be addressed and changed. It's all the power of the mind, and the willingness to change.

My state of mind, has had a physical effect on my body. It does for anyone, when the situation allows. I need to listen to my body, but more importantly, I need to let go of fear.

We live in a world where food is plentiful. We have more food than we need. We have more choices than ever.

I know how to make choices that are right for my family and I. I just need to simplify. I've been working on meditation. Releasing fears.

I focus on how blessed we are to have the freedom to make choices. I will say YES to pizza. I will enjoy the slowness of food. Growing, harvesting, creating, sharing food.

Our culture has gotten so far away from the true pleasure of a meal; the experience. Who we eat with can bring us joy. Preparing a meal is so satisfying, especially when feeding others. It's so much more than just what's on the fork, and it's that thought that brings me satisfaction and peace. Besides, don't I have better things to worry about?

{MANTRA}

By experiencing the joy, and culture of food, I release fear, and take on peace

#ESMEINK Journal Entry by Lise-Marie Johnson

#ESMEINK : "Love" Day 6

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{ LOVE } 

Yesterday's solstice, on a full moon, spoke of a summer of love, a bountiful harvest to come, new beginnings, letting go, addressing fears and relationships. Strangely, all topics I've been compelled to write about in my journals this past week.

Today I write about love in the light of this moon!

I love, love. Always have. I believe there is someone for everyone. I knew I would find true love, and then, finally I did. When I least expected it, and that's a beautiful cliche.

Darkness is necessary for my growth.

I didn't get married super young, and I'm glad. I came close to settling. A couple of times. Yesterday I mentioned that I'm grateful for my ugly relationships because of what I learned from them. Today, rather than refer to them as "ugly relationships", I call them "the times that taught me about love".

These times became dark, and scary. I ended up feeling hatred towards myself, and I developed walls which would eventually effect future relationships. For me, these dark moments were important and necessary.

Darkness is where all seeds begin. They can't grow, blossom, or be appreciated by others if they're not down in the cold dark dirt to lay roots, and start growing. And grow, I did. I knew what I would and would not accept in a relationship. I knew what things I was willing to let go. I knew that morals had to match. I knew that Self growth was something I never wanted to be frowned upon, or discouraged. I knew how much I was willing to give back. I became ready for love, but didn't realize it until love smacked me in the face.

{True love.}

When Stacy and I met, we fell in love fast. So fast it was frightening. We decided to just go with it.

He accepted me for where I was at in my life. A lost soul, in need of real love. He helped me break down my walls when I was ready. He wasn't afraid of my baggage. He accepted my past, and wanted a future. It seemed too good to be true, and wasn't.

There are so many stages of love, and I don't' know how to explain them. All I know, is hindsight is beautiful. I love reflecting on where we've been, how far we've come, the beautiful moments, the challenges. We are entering our 7th year together this month. Rough patches in a good healthy relationship are pretty easily forgotten. They are normal. It means that we are, and always will be our own divine, individual selves, working together to achieve a feel-good, meaningful spiritual life.

We take the time to self love, in order to better love each other. We support one another in our decisions, knowing that our belief systems are aligned and keep us strong. We believe in each other, helping us believe in ourselves.

The future is bright with burning love.

{MANTRA}

Shima, shima, shima.

(Love, love, love.)

#ESMEINK Journal Entry by Lise-Marie Johnson