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#ESMEINK : "Mother Earth" Day 26

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{Mother Earth}

I've been busy preparing for September. September is going to be a significant month. I will either be residing in Calgary or Chilliwack, and it's still not going to be determined until August 30th.

So, I've been busy preparing for a fresh start no matter where I may be. I have a few little classes in the works for mid september. My focus has been so much on the preparation of the future, that in the past week I haven't put time into my journals. It's so easy to forget to take the time to take care of 'self'. My mind races to find journal ideas, and i've forgotten to just go with the flow.

This weekend I spent lots of time barefoot and free in mother nature. The sun kissed my face, and my feet felt grounded. My kids went for their longest hike with us thus far, and wildlife was plentiful.

I know, that whenever I'm feeling a bit lost-in my self, in life, in my work, in my purpose, in my future, that when I turn to mother earth, she speaks. The only thing that matters is here, and now. She calms me.

"The mountains are my bones, the rivers my veins The forests are my thoughts and the stars are my dreams The ocean is my heart, it's crashing is my pulse The songs of the earth write the music of my soul" -unknown

#ESMEINK Journal Entry by Lise-Marie Johnson

#ESMEINK : "Consciousness" Day 8

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{ Consiousness }

"He reached over to the refrigerator, grasped an onion, and tossed it to me. "Peel it, layer by layer," he demanded. I started peeling. "What do you find?" "Another layer." "Continue." I peeled off a few more layers. "Just more layers, Soc." I said. "Keep going." "There's nothing left." "There's something left, all right." "What's that?" "The universe. Consider that as you walk home."

-From the book, "Way of the peaceful warrior"

Just when I feel like I'm going crazy because of how busy my mind is, I come across this piece from an amazing book. It's a lot to consider for sure. I'm called to meditate. Journalling has been great, but seems to have opened up so many thoughts, feelings, and confusion. I am writing down thoughts and ideas the moment I get them, so that I can write about them later. Some of them I don't feel ready to tackle when it comes time to sit down and write. Others, i'm just not that passionate to write about. I want each entry to really mean something. I want to work on my soul. Find what drives me. Get to know myself better.

There is change upon me, and it's a strong, heavy feeling. I don't know what it is, but I only feel this way when I know something big on the way. It's a strange energy.

{change}

Only the mind is resistant to change. When we are able to relax to a state of mindlessness, we feel happy, free, present, and don't sense separation from anything.

"The body is Consciousness; never born; never dies; only changes. The mind-your ego, personal beliefs, history, and identity-is all that ends at death." -"way of the peaceful warrior"

I want my mind to be less noisy. I want to feel more present. Meditation helps. If I can pay attention to the 2 main processes; insight and surrender, then I should be able to let go and be free of the mind, in those moments I need peace. Insight-paying attention to what is arising. Surrender-letting go of attachment to arising thoughts. I allow thoughts to come in, and I allow myself to let them go. This will give me peace.

I have no mantra for today. Rather, I will breathe deep, listen to the rhythm of my heartbeat and breath. For today, I am alive with many passions, and I will move through these thoughts without getting stuck.

"Quiet the mind, and the soul will speak." -Ma Jaya Sati Bhagavati

conciousness

#ESMEINK Journal Entry by Lise-Marie Johnson